Sunday, March 18, 2012

My Baby First Day

My baby first day started on 6 March 8.40pm. Around 10pm, after the nurse finished cleaning and sewing me because I had tear while giving pregnancy to the baby, I am back to my hospital bed. I had a chat with some of the new friends who are also waiting to give labor in the hospital. They asked me many thing about my labor since they knew I have a induce labor, you can read it here; my baby born at 40 weeks. I don't remember most of the question but some of them asked is it painful? Yes, for me it is certainly a painful experience.

I am a little bit sad when my husband cannot come in to the hospital to Azan our baby because the hospital procedure don't allow visitor after visiting hours. My baby behavior that night make me smile, he keep on lifting both his hands near his ear (look like giving takbir) all night long. Maybe he want to remind me I forget to give Azan to him. I whisper syahadah to Zariff Safwan ear and try to breastfeed him for the first time. It will be a lie if I say it is a beautiful memories breastfeeding for the first day. Get ready to had a wound around your nipple if you don't knew the right technique to breastfeed. Especially if you have a lack of milk on the first day. I don't give up, even though I feel pain, I keep on trying to breastfeed him.
"Walaupun kita nampak baby tu macam lemah tapi bila dia start hisap susu, dia sangat kuat. Jadi kalau masukkan puting, masukkan sepenuhnya ke dalam mulut baby untuk mengelakkan luka".
A friend on my right bed side teach me the right technique to breastfeed, you need to make sure the baby suck your nipple properly. They maybe look weak but when it come to suck nipple, they are eager to suckle. That night, I had to woke up all night because my baby keep on crying because he is hungry. When I look at other baby around me, most of them keep quiet and sleeping. In my mind, that maybe because of late labor (10 days) compare to normal babies.

When it came to changing his diaper, I don't have problem since I have 2 younger sisters and brother that I take care before. But changing a diapers to your own son is totally a different experience. I don't feel creepy changing his diapers compare with changing my siblings diaper. Oh.., before I forget, a newborn feces or poop color is a bit black/green in color and it will be a little bit hard to clean them. You need to make sure you bring as many baby wet tissue or baby wipers as you can in the hospital. In my baby case, he give poop three times in a night. Even though my baby keep on crying, I don't have enough sleep and rest, I feel want a bit angry, when I look at my little Zariff face, all the bad mode are gone. I keep on trying to wake up to breastfeed my precious baby.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

My baby born at 40 weeks

Thank you to all my friends who has been wishing me good luck via Facebook, E-mail, Phone and also Twitter. Most of my Facebook friends already knew my baby born at 40 weeks 3 days, on 6 March 2012. After over 9 days from REDD (25 February), they're still no sign of labor, I were admitted to Maternity Wad in Kota Marudu Hospital on 5 March 2012. In the morning of 5th February, my cervix opening is 3cm, the doctor decide to delay the pain medication for labor.

The next day, it still 3cm, Dr. Jeremy said they will wait until the opening become 4cm and they will force delivery. A nurse told me to eat anything I want now because I cannot go out once I admitted in the labor room. In the afternoon, even though it is very painful and blood coming out every minutes, I keep on trying to endure the pain because I want to try a cooking from a new restaurant that my husband bought for me. 4.30pm when the visiting time came, I eat my "Nasi Goreng Lalap" that my husband bought. I can only eat a small portion and 20 minutes later, I admitted in the labor room.

After my water has been broken and waiting for medication to been given by nurse, Dr. Jeremy come in and told me that these will be a very painful experience that he cannot imagine. He come out from the labor room showing me the horror face. 5.30pm, I start to feel the pain bit by bit. At first, I only show some tears while enduring the pain. After one hour, they still cannot see any contraction, they start giving me medication and told me to pee and go to defecate with a side position.

The nurse said to me,"Jangan malu-malu berak kalau mau berak ya."

At that time, I were thinking how can they stand waiting and talking with all the smell in the closed and air-condition room like that.

After I had thrown all my waste, they start to see a contraction from the machine. Dr. Jeremy come in again and asked for any update about me. At that moment, I were thinking will this doctor be delivering my baby? But in the end I knew he just monitoring. Dr. jeremy start to tapped my shoulder and try to motivate me. When they told me to change my lie down position almost every minutes, it make me mad. But I try to keep it to myself since I knew they're only doing their job.

At 8pm, the pain is something that I cannot imagine and I crying out loud without a piece of shame. Even when the nurses in the room told me to stop crying since I need more energy during labor, I keep on crying and shouting like a mad men. I only stop crying when I saw my husband cousin (a nurse) give me a towel. When she saw me crying, I still remembered what he said,"bawa mengucap kak". It make me stop crying for a while and say my pray to Allah.  But I continue crying and shouting after that.

When my crying and shouting become louder, they knew my contraction is coming and they check for the cervix opening. They can saw my baby head try to come out but they're something blocking its way. I can only remembered they said,"ring belum terbuka". Few minutes later,the ring started to open and they told me to push. I try to push so many time but I really don't know the right technique.

One of the nurse said,"Kau tak boleh lemah semangat, mesti kuatkan semangat untuk baby kau, nanti baby lemas, Kau dapat buat sekali teran tu sebab kau tinggi."

I try to think how to do the right push and try to imagine my hubby cousin words,"teran macam mau berak tahi yang keras." After that I imagine myself defecate and hold on to the iron bar in that room. I try to push as hard as I can when the pain came, the baby head come out. I thought its the end of my labor journey, I take a deep breath of relief. When all the nurses said,"teran lagi, badan baby belum keluar". With all energy that I had left, I try to push as hard as I can. After my baby body come out, all the other things came out to excluding the placenta. A nurse help me pull the placenta out.

My baby born at 8.40pm. Everyone in the room said that my maternity process is very short compare to other people. maybe because I always walk training and drink pure coconut oil. They put my baby on my chest for a few minutes and clean me up. A nurse show me my baby gender and I just nod. 

When she put a cloth on my baby, she asked me,"Kau memang tahu sedia baby ko lelaki?".
"Yes", I answered.
"Patutlah semua color baju dan seluar dia biru".

That's all what I can share with everyone. FYI, I am still not feeling well and still feel a bit pain but I am glad everything OK. Our baby, Zariff Safwan is very healthy and drink a lot of his mom milk everyday. On the day of his birth, he weight 2.85kg but have a very long body compare to other baby in Kota Marudu.

I also want to thanks all the nurses in Kota Marudu Hospital for their hospitality and generosity. I am sorry, I don't remember all your name but hopefully some of you can read this blog. To my husband cousin, Sarimah and Razali, thank you very much for your concern and help during 3 days I am in the hospital. It will be a memorable moments in my families story. On 6 March 2012, I become a Queen and a mom to a handsome dragon baby boy.

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